you're a mystery yourself

Friday, August 21, 2009

5:14 PM

its a friday and im in hall now waiting for my dad to send me home. it has been a brilliant week in school and in hall but i still miss home.

school has been busy as usual due to the nature of my course. well at least the course is getting more interesting, i'm doing tcm diagnostics this semester learning the different kinds of diagnostic methods like diagnosis by asking, by looking and observing, by hearing, by smelling, by pulsation. interesting.

so what happened the whole of this week at school? the highlight is mainly the hall welcome dinner and the short lunch meetups with my friends. =) anyway, school elections are round the corner and its quite worrying to see that the top few postitions are still not taken yet and i dont wanna take it up because im pressurized to do so. my workload is gonna be heavy, my focus for this sem would be my studies and i've made up my mind a long while ago. well, we'll see how it goes la.

my brain is quite dead now. and i'm sleepy.
byee world. =D much much loves.

&the beauty.

11:42 PM

showdowned yesterday.

after showdown. met jj for dinner at sakae. then went to chill out at the fountain of wealth and walk around a little. well, yesterday i was still feeling okay,perhaps, it could be that the feeling havent sink in yet. Just give me a few more days, i'd probably be affected by it.

went for brunch with orang utan today at ichiban sushi. i had sushi for 2 meals consecutively. great. had a good chat and meal. after that went out with my sac darlings to celebrate sy's bday. went for a thrilling ice skate and then headed to sushi tei for dinner. goodness, 3 sushi meals within 2 days. i think i can be a food critic for sushis soon. then went for retail therapy. i tell u, i have been shopping like mad, i think the phrase "shop till u drop" is very apt to my shopping attitude. and with my new credit card, it isn't doing any good to my "try to shop less" goal. well, nevermind, at least i feel happy. a much needed way to getting my mind off for awhile. i definitely had a great time today, with the greatest companions i can ever find.

being single for 9 months has made me a different kind of gf that i normally am? i'm still pondering over this due to my supposedly lack of care love and concern in the latest r/s that i was in. was it really entirely due to my independence, my busy-ness? i dont know. but one thing for sure i know is that,though i may not have given in my best to this one; due to my lack of time and being caught up with too many things like FOCs, but i have love him all along. from the start, when we just got together and when i was at mt k, i was so excited about coming back to singapore, being able to hold his hands, spend time together, do everything under the sun together. that was the kinda feeling that i was experiencing when i was in kinabalu. and sadly, just a few days later, some things just have to happen to turn this whole happy,i wanna go out with u and have fun with u feeling into one that is "urgh, maybe not. why are u doubting me bcos of some issue" i hate it most when people doubt me and listen to everyone else except me. i feel hurt. utterly hurt and disappointed. it may seem that i have gotten over this issue, but it hasnt. when i get affected by such situations. it takes time, alot of time for me to get over it. maybe if we have the patience, things might be better.

instead of things getting better, things turned sour-er and sour-er. lack of time, more of worldly friends comments. somehow it feels like the world has come between us, our lives have come between us and we both fell apart. thats in summary. its quite sad. i keep reminding myself this could be the start of something big. somehow i know when i dont have a firm and stable bf, the whole r/s will just topple and fall. and this was how it fell.

i'll get over it.

&the beauty.