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Sunday, July 12, 2009

1:14 AM

had hall fright night recce today. it took place at the old changi hospital. the place is quite cool but quite spooky too. thank goodness i didnt see anything. well at least, its a new experience gained for me. and guess what, i've become a GL instead of an SA for hall camp. how great. more commitments required.

well, there's certain things in life im quite unhappy and disgusted. there's so many ways to learn about my past, first through me, second through my friends. if u choose the latter, what makes u think its more accurate than getting info from me straight? honestly, i'm so freaking tired of a relationship, i might just decide to give up this one too. its sad, i'm adding to the numbers, not that i want to, but rather, i've overestimated him. not like my previous relationships, i would get to know the person better then get together. but this wasnt the case for this particular one, maybe its because of the long absence or something else that i've been trying to figure out.

being in a relationship is definitely not easy. when i was young, i always wanted a boyfriend thats one and only. being young and naive, i have dreams like fairytale always wishing that i would lead a good life, get married to a prince charming and live in a place like alice in wonderland. when i grew up, i knew this was all just naive and idealistic thinking and this would never happen. then my perception of relationship begin to change when i gotten my first one. happy at the start, sad at the end. well, at least a lesson learnt. then a second. most memorable definitely. best friend then boyfriend. due to my stupidity and lack of "cherishness" things turned sour, another lesson learnt. then the third. this one, not worth talking about..then the forth. lets wait and see.

tired. im exhausted from camp from everything. im glad im going off next week. i need the break badly. thank god. phew.

&the beauty.